I haven't had much of an opportunity to update. The last 3 weeks have been very eventful, given that my second son was born on August 14. With a 19-month-old and a newborn, well, it doesn't leave much room for updating a blog.
Today is the last day of my 3rd 40 day fast. To recap, I continued to abstain from chocolate and cokes, but added candy to that, as well. I kept all of those, with one exception. After the birth of my son, a good friend brought dinner over and she had made a yummy chocolate pudding cake. She did not know that I was on a chocolate fast. I considered not eating any of it. But then I also thought about legalsim. She had made that cake as a blessing to me. Would it not be legalistic to not partake of even a little bit? It wasn't the same situation as me standing in the grocery store checkout line trying to resist buying a piece of candy and then giving in out of weakness. If she had asked me, I would have asked her not to make anything chocolate. But she didn't ask so she didn't know. She thought about something that I would enjoy and made it for me. From scratch, I think.
This may sound like a rationalization, but I couldn't go without having some of it. Not because I couldn't resist the chocolate appeal, but because I wanted to be able to tell her that I enjoyed it very much and appreciated the trouble she went to in making it. I wouldn't have been able to tell her that otherwise. So that was my instance of straying from the fast. But I hope it makes sense that only did so out of love and appreciation to a very dear friend.
I'll take my usual week off, and allow myself to enjoy a few things on the forbidden list. However, I remember what happened last time, so I'll be sure to keep it under control. I don't want another sore throat and drainage like last time. Especially not with having to care for a newborn.
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